Thursday, January 31, 2013

6990 week 4 Gray Skies Are Gonna Clear Up....

.... Put on a Happy Face...How fitting that Dick Van Dyke won the SAG Lifetime Achievement award last Sunday. It must have been an omen because this week has been swell.


This week I learned about NPEN.org. This is the National Parenting Education Network. It is all for people who work with parenting. I met with Liz Pierce for my week 4 interview because she works for Children's Museum of Richmond.Our conversation led to her telling me about NPEN, incidentally she is the chair of it. However I am having trouble signing up for the free listserv….so we shall see how it goes. At the current moment I don’t have spare funds to join organizations.

Playing on the internet I found NAECTE – National Association Early Childhood Teacher Education. They have their own journal as well. I hope to find good information there. However in their paper they advocate only a certification and I would like to challenge the country’s day care/preschool system to require four year degrees [though I am slowly thinking that two year degrees may be sufficient though not the best]. Something about college changes people’s thinking. It expands their mind and the way they think. It teaches them to entertain idea other than their own and not feel pressure to accept the new ideas as their own. College is important.  But that is just my opinion. http://www.naecte.org/

I found a specific organization that may be helpful to me. It is called nacctep.org. It stands for National Association of Community College Teacher Education Programs. Woot! This one sounds really good. They offer scholarships to students to help them become teachers. It is for both early childhood and k – 12.  Basically they want community college to be a part of recruiting, preparing and retaining new teachers. I am super supportive of this. As I mention above, two year degrees are ok. I hope that community college will inspire people to continue and earn the BA’s. I have worked with people who've earned two year degrees and though they are better than those with no education – it is not the same as “regular” college. 

I am super aware that I am heavily influence by my own experience, my own values and thoughts. I am influenced by my own self. This has potential to be bad but for now it is helping me survive. I want to do well in this class and in this class I need a focus. My focus is I want to improve the education of teachers so that when they go into the classroom they will be able to think. Yes this focus is super selfish. I don’t want to work with people who are dumb as bricks nor do I want to send my kids to a center where they will be taught by those dumb as bricks.  So perhaps what I really want to do is improve critical thinking and mind opening. I want to challenge the “this is how we've always done it” mindset of early education. 

This week at church, I met a woman at church who works for the STAR initiative. STAR is creating a database of all the early care centers and rating them based on a whole bunch of areas. The center I worked for was preparing to be rated when I left. We talked about my education and I could be a rater for them. This was a thrilling experience. It was huge confidence boost – an assurance that I am not wasting my time in early child studies teaching adults. It was really good.

I also had a revelation this week. I don’t know where my life will take me. I want to see there are options out there for me. I am afraid of focus because in my past what happens when I focus is I latch onto that one idea and cannot see or accept the rest of the world. The job market is not a fully stocked grocery store at the moment and I need to be ok that I do not have to follow one path. It is ok that I may end up teaching, I may not. I may end up at STAR or doing parenting classes or doing any number of things. I am afraid that if I focus sooo much on this capstone project I will forget that there is a great big world out there and the world will not end if I pursue a different path from what I planned.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

6990 WEEK 2. Sad Face.


This has been the most discouraging week.

I have learned that I am not job material. I have too specific a degree that over qualifies me for a lot of work yet makes me unqualified for a lot of work at the same time. It’s like that song from Avenue Q – “What do you do with a B.A. in English? What is my life going to be? Four years of college and plenty of knowledge has earned me this useless degree. I can’t pay the bills yet cause I have no skills yet. The world is a big scary place” (Lopez & Marx, 2003,track 1).

  To make matters even more confusing, I was living in the illusion that earning a Master’s degree increases my financial opportunities. This is not true. See, I have this silly dream of being able to move out of my childhood home and still afford to buy food and gas. Crazy, right?

Apparently I am still only eligible for center jobs which is not what I want to do, and those jobs pay the same as when I was stopped working. [I resigned from work so I could focus on just on school] I have always known that jobs that care for human beings are bad paying jobs because we’re a country that doesn’t value humans the way it values business. However I am of a generation (I just learned) that values money (Nilson, 2010).  I imagine this would not be as big a deal if I was married because there would be two incomes to live off of but I am not married – no where even close to married so it’s just me earning money for me to live on. As of now, this seems very unlikely.

My dream would be to work as a teacher at a community college. (I realized very quickly I will never work at a four year University as I do not have nor do I want a PhD.) I love my course materials and thinking about classroom life and I like the idea of using what I know from life and school and teaching others. And in the dream I would earn $40,000 a year.  But that is not real life.

Another job I would be interested in having is to work at a museum either on the planning team or the outreach team. I remember in school when museums would come to school or we would go visit museums and there would be a person there to talk to us and teach us about what was going on. I could be that person but apparently not according to the job search websites.

Oh there are lots of interesting jobs out there that I would like to do but I am not able to apply for them as I don’t have this or that. I don’t have a Phd. The idea of pursuing a Phd makes me want to vomit. I don’t have three or more years of experience in teaching. (I kind of do in that I worked in a daycare center for almost three years but I’m pretty sure that doesn’t count. 
As I searched around for jobs I realized that I should not have changed my mind in the middle. I thought I knew what I wanted to do but then I changed my mind. I hate having more than one interest. So basically the lesson is don’t get a Masters degree unless you are 120% sure you want that exact job. 


References
Lopez, R. &  Marx, J. (2003). What do you do with a B.A. in English. On Avenue Q, Music from the Musical [itunes]. New York, NY: RCA Victor Broadway.

 Nilson, L. B. (2010). Teaching at its best: A research-based resource for college instructors (3rd ed.). San Francisco, CA: Jossey-Bass.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Almost there

This begins the last eight weeks of my Masters program. I can't believe it. I am almost done with my classes. So weird. and of course there is the dread that comes with a new phase of life. 

Instructional Strategies and Capstone will be the cause of all stress or bliss I may feel in the upcoming weeks. 

Deep Breath. I can do it.